every time i try to get back here the same thing happens. i read the last post. and i realize that it's not what i've been doing, and that i should try it (again). and i just keep going in circles, getting caught up, getting worked up, realizing that's not it, going back to the beginning. it almost seems like life has become boring. or maybe its just me. being boring.
even special things have become routine. i know how to ride 100 kilometers without working out, i know i can work 12-hour (net) days if i have to, i know i can go bare-chested when the sidewalks starts to freeze. watching jelena eat a danish before we start working.
do i know where Change lies.
